This may sound dumb....

but I just realized how lucky I am to be able to stay home with my baby. I have been home for over four and a half months ("bed rest" before Annie was born). I can't imagine what my life would have been like if I had gone back to work after 6 weeks like I considered. I feel like Annie is too little now for me to leave in someone else's care every day, how would I have felt 11 weeks ago if I had left her!

I spend so much of my day playing, nursing, and holding her! I can't imagine not being with her. I really need to be on the lookout for a job, especially considering the harsh economic times our country is currently in, but I just don't have the heart to seriously look for a job. If I look for a job that means I'm seriously thinking about leaving my baby and that breaks my heart!!!